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Time:07:05 pm

i don't know why i say the things i do. i guess i'm just in an awkard place (?). uhhm. yeah sure.

anyway...sorry for being stupid i guess...i just can't help the way i feel sometimes.

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Time:02:47 pm
Current Mood:worriedworried
8:43 am:
4 bombings...one wasnt enough
37; possible 50 dead.
700 injured.
worst attack there since WWII.
warning raised to orange.
anxiety.

i hate this.
this needs to stop.

jess...i wish you were home <3..
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Time:07:30 pm
people shouldn't say such things to others because you never know how a person is going to react.
you don't know what this person does as a result or how it affects this person.
it may do nothing, or it causes everything.

i don't get it.

and i'm sorry that i'll never be what you want.
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Time:07:36 pm
Current Mood:crushedcrushed
my brother went to Wisconsin earlier this week for business and he sent me a post card.
it has cows all over it and it reads "Wiscowsin." =)
ahhh i misssss him<3

i got really upset at my mom today while i was driving.
she kept questioning me on what i was doing.
she freaking asked me if i looked over my shoulder before moving into another lane in a highway.
what am i supposed to say to that?
"oh yeah im just a crazy dare devil."
then she yelled at me for going 40...in a 40 mph zone.
i was doing everything wrong, apparently.
she kept gripping the seat and slaming her foot on the ground becuase she got nervous that i wasn't going to break.
why the sudden nervousness?
it really, really made me upset.
i don't really think of myself as being the best driver in the world and my mother had continuingly stated that i am and that she trust me...so what the fuck is going on?
She made me drive home after too even though i didn't want to.
i really did not want to drive after that.
she made me so anxious and i wanted to throw up.
needless to say, i cried.
i'm really mad at her...i can't even describe it.
then i took a nap after and i had a dream i got in a car accident...thanks a lot mom!!!=)

i have a lot of homework.
DAMN YOU TEACHERS TO HELL.
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Subject:Shouldn't be so complicated; just hold me and then, just touch me and then...
Time:10:45 pm
Current Mood:hopefulhopeful
i have so much running through my head right now.
i'm aware of all that i need to accomplish, but this april vacation has felt like summer vacation.
i almost refuse to go back to school.

drew carey just kissed a man.
hmm...it was awkward...and i'm not even there.

"Talking about music is like talking about sex. How do you describe it?"

oh bruce you make me smile.

i was looking at some peoples' pictures online.
they seem to be having such a great time.
sometimes i wonder if i'm really living the way i should be.
i'm not saying that i'm not having fun or anything because i definitely i am.
i am with people who i love being with, but sometimes there is too much anxiety in there, rather than just fun.

meeeh i have to study so much for history.
that's starting tomorrow.
if i don't study every day this week...smack me?

i think i've already lost you...
boy is confusing me.
believe it or not i put a lot of effort in this one.
usually i would just let the "dent" fade away before it became a crush because it's just easier that way.
well, i'm sick of doing that.
so i tried to make this one "happen"
ok so i didn't tell him yet...
but could it be more obvious??
perhaps not.
which means i have to grow up and not be a pansy.
i wish he would just say how he feels about me...it would be so much easier...for me =)
i wish people always shared how they felt about each other...as if it were a common thing.
that would be fan fucking tastic.

also whilst looking at peoples' pictures i saw some couples.
it's amazing how you really dont know what you have until it's gone.

You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Come on sweet catastrophe
Well, maybe this time I can follow through
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Time:08:50 pm
slight change.
i am unbelieveably numb.
how i pretend is facinating.

oh just stab me in the heart.
death by a thousand knives.
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